So this could be the shortest piece yet if it weren’t for the 500 word thing. Someone once described me as “a person who didn’t even know what I didn’t know”. To which I responded, “I don’t understand”. Honestly it made me quite mad at first and then it made me quite scared. What if she was right. I then I decided that she just didn’t know me very well and she needed a reason to create distance between us. It worked, that was the last time we saw each other. I imagine she has passed away by now, RIP.”
Since that day I have been resolved to always declare
that “I know nothing”, like Senior Master Sergeant Hans Georg Schultz.
While this has relieved some of my internal pressure to know things it
has not been a high performance job interview technique. Thank God for
all the jobs he has given me without interviews. Once hired I do well, I
love to solve problems, look for new solutions, use materials at hand
rather than buy new ones. I am good at smiling even when others
aren’t(this can be a bit dicey at times, but works about 60% of the
time)
Anyways I am not writing about ignorance today, for a change.
Today my topic is fear. Yesterday I read that we think fear of failing
inhibits our dreams, but in fact the problem is fear of succeeding. The
logic being that if we fail in a new dream path, we stay where we are.
Where we are is what we know, expect in my case because I don’t
anything. If we take the steps we know toward our dream then we will
arrive at a new place, if we dream about a new place. A place we don’t
know and a scary place maybe. This scared me a little. Personally I
kind of like fear, pain not so much, but fear is exciting. I like
success even more than fear, see pain statement. Generally I am even
good with change without success, provided pain statement remains true.
This may help explain the last 50 years, of my life and quite possibly
the last 2000 years of mankind. On the scale of eternity both time
periods are equal, however success and the non existence are not equal
other than in the shortest of time scales.
In all fairness to
myself and mankind we have had many instances of great success, lets not
get into the points of pain here. All the same I do believe we can do
better. We must do better. Part of doing better may be in seeing the
pain of the present state, thus pushing us toward a better dream. This
might explain the high degree of negativity in politics today. Or it
could just be that our political system is just very negative. As stated
previously, I know nothing and avoid pain.
I think the solution lies
more in the dream, of the unknown or the known. A person who grows up
seeing their parents and people around them living a certain way an
dream of that future for themselves with much less fear than a person
who has only seen others from an untouchable distance live that way.
Why is the lottery so popular? All the fun of the dream without the
pesky fear of change. And when is change the most fearful? When we are
not sure of ourselves. We need to have our foundation of who we are
solid. With a good foundation we will express our good in the change.
With a foundation of “bad” (you define that as you will) we will express
this in the change. Sorry about returning to politics again.
Thankfully something I know so little about, although that is such a
vast area.
Unfortunately I am afraid politics has become so corrupted
because so many of the good people have jumped in, got burned and
jumped out. And we need to correct this.